poopy

What have I been doing since I last wrote in my diary? Oh, passing through states, literal and emotional. And the news is that I am either sick or getting symptoms of depression again. I feel so tired I could sleep at any hour of the day, and have to pump so much caffinee through my viens, just to drive. I wish I could go off caffinee. I smoked a whole pack of AS last week. And I really feel like shit. And there it is.

I am at a loss... should I go into see a doc and have them fuck with my meds again? Should I just lay off the alcohol and get some more sleep??

I could cry. My confusion has started to set in again. Why me?